It literally just hit me that I’m grown the fuck up already. No more high school. I literally don’t live with either of my parents or a family member meaning everything I get, I bought. I have a full time job that’s Monday through Friday. I have to make my own doctors appointments and find my little diseased ass a way there if I’m sick. I can’t just ask my parents for money if I need a few extra dollars. I gained friends but lost more. I’ve been so into “living” the “lets get blacked out drunk this weekend” the past quite few months that I didn’t realize that my CHILDhood is over. You wanna know what always comes up during those moments too? How shit used to be when we were kids. I should have never moved out so soon. I should have stood in school with my friends to see who would have really still been here for me. I wouldn’t go back and change a fucking thing though. I’m going to continue to REALLY LIVE & BE HAPPY because I am never going to be this young again. I might not ever be this happy again, who knows.